The Secrets we Reveal
Chapter Seven (Riley)
Jeez, I feel tired. I'm not sure what I did last night, but I think I must have gotten drunk or something because I can only remember parts of the night. I mean, compared to not remembering anything, that's definitely a positive, but I have no idea why there was alcohol and why I would drink it.
All I know is that I have a splitting headache, and as much as I wanted to get up and out of bed, I just couldn't bring myself to move. I couldn't even be bothered to push the covers off, although as I thought about it, I suddenly felt the need to pee, and it wasn't just a little urge, I really, really needed to pee, and to my own surprise, I was almost too my feet already.
However, despite the urge to pee still being pretty urgent, when I look down at myself, I quickly frown. I was completely naked, and while it wasn't exactly the first time I had ever woken up naked, it was a little more worrying this time. Sure, I had obviously been drinking, and I couldn't really remember anything, but even so, I'm pretty sure I would have at least put some briefs or shorts on.
The urge to pee though quickly takes over again. Although as soon as I start peeing, I wish I had sat down because it was going everywhere. I mean what the hell is going on? Seriously, I really don't want to be cleaning up pee everywhere, not when I feel like this.
"Riley, I don't care if you're still asleep in there. Just remember, we leave in a few hours. Don't be late!" I then suddenly hear someone shout from behind me, and if I hadn't already made a mess everywhere, I would have just now. To my relief and embarrassment, I quickly realized that it was my sister, and more importantly, that she was shouting through the door, and not from inside the room.
"I know, and I'm awake, Lily. I just want to say goodbye to some people first." I decide to call back in response. While at the same time, looking around for something to use to clean the floor and toilet. It was everywhere, and the way I was feeling, it was the last thing I wanted to be doing.
"Keep your phone on you." I then hear her say, and I assume then just walk away. I don't bother responding. I had bigger issues right now, and walk over to the sink to delay cleaning up as much as possible. But as I look into the mirror, I can't help but notice a couple of things, that doesn't quite look right.
I mean don't get me wrong, I'm not a party animal or a secret alcoholic. I'm not even fifteen yet. But I know what people look like with a hangover, and while I feel like death right now, I don't look like it. I look tired, but I just woke up, but my eyes aren't bloodshot, and I don't actually smell alcohol. I know what that smells like, and I haven't been sick either.
So as I look in the mirror and think about it, I can't help but just feel confused. I remember bits and pieces from the party. Well more like flashes really, and I know that I had at least one drink, but as much as I try to remember specifics, I can't. It's like the memory is right there, but just out of reach. It's frustrating.
As much as I want to dwell on it now, I have cleaned up to do. I am leaving today, and there is no way I want anyone to find out I pretty much covered the bathroom floor with pee. I mean only the cleaner will see it, but it would spread around, and Aidan will hear about it, and he will give me hell for it. Fuck, even Billy will tease me about it. So screw that, I need to get this cleaned up and then make myself presentable, I want to find Billy and say goodbye to him.
One hour later…
Oh wow, maybe I should give it a few minutes before I call out to them. I mean I am sure Billy might welcome the interruption, but there is no way I am getting in between him and what is more than likely, a lecture that he deserves. I've only seen Mason look this angry a couple of times, and it's usually because Billy did something he really shouldn't have been doing.
I mean I am still too far away to hear them, but I can tell that this is actually serious. Which is another reason I don't want to interrupt. Mason might be one of the nicest guys around here, he really is, but when it comes to training and stuff, he's as tough as any of the others. I guess it's not that surprising, being an Empowered is tough, and lives are on the line. So I get it. I just think Billy sometimes forgets.
He is only thirteen though, so maybe he should get a bit of leeway with it, and it almost makes me want to walk over to them. Instead, though, I decided to walk over to the nearest bench and wait for Mason to finish telling Billy off, for whatever he did this time. However, as I watch, I start to look around and notice that there doesn't seem to be anyone else around.
It's not that unusual I guess, it is a training area after all, and if Mason booked the area, then it makes sense. But there is normally someone else watching, as one of the researchers or doctors who I have noticed, like to watch the training for studying what happens and I guess for the doctors. They must just be used to getting people to come in with injuries and figure they might as well be nearby, just to save a bit of time.
So it was definitely a surprise that I couldn't see anyone. Although the sound of shouting quickly catches my attention, and it was really loud this time. I couldn't hear it before, and they were obviously arguing or something. So to be able to hear it, definitely made me pay attention.
As soon as I look towards them though, I find myself standing up and running towards them both. I don't care what Billy did, he's still just a kid, and Mason is almost eighteen years old. He shouldn't be pushing Billy like he just did. Not outside of training, and this wasn't training.
"Hey! What the hell are you doing?" I quickly call out, as I approach them both. I was just going to run up to Mason and shove him, as he had just shoved Billy for the second time. But, while I was angry, I wasn't stupid, I would likely hurt myself more if I tried to do that.
I then almost call out again, but just as I see Billy slowly getting to his feet and Mason moving towards him again, I see Mason look in my direction and stop in his tracks. To my confusion though, as I finally make it over to them. He doesn't look sheepish or worried. He looks angry, and that catches me by surprise.
"Are you okay, Billy?" I decide to ask. I could have talked to Mason first, but I could see how nervous and worried Billy was, and I wanted to make sure that he was okay, but as I step towards him, I feel a hand on my chest and find myself looking at Mason.
"Don't get too close to him, Riley." He then states firmly. It wasn't a request, it was an order, and I had no idea what was going on. I've never seen him like this, and I honestly had no idea how to react.
"I didn't..." I then hear billy begin to say, but Mason is quick to cut him off, and despite wanting to do something, and stop him from treating Billy this way. I just stood frozen in confusion instead. I couldn't help it.
"Don't you dare, Billy. Just stay back and don't even think about touching him." Mason then quickly says in a tone, that lets me know straight away, that this was serious. I still had no idea what had happened, but it had to be bad, it had to be. Although I have no idea why he would tell Billy not to touch me, that was weird.
"Mason, I don't know what's going on, but whatever he did, it can't be that bad." I then find myself saying. I'm not sure why I spoke up, I mean I wanted to, but I was still stunned by what was happening, so I definitely surprised myself, but actually speaking up.
"Don't just look at the floor, Billy. If you don't tell him, I will. There is no way out of it, so tell him." Mason quickly states. I'm not sure if he was ignoring me or if he even heard me say anything, but I don't care right now. I was thinking about his words, and why he just said what he did.
"What's going on?" I decided to ask them. I couldn't help it, and Billy didn't seem to want to reply, he was still looking down at the ground. Something was going on though, so I needed to find out, and figure out why Mason was telling Billy to tell me something. Tell me what? Did whatever Billy do, involve me? Did he break something of mine?
"I didn't do anything!" I then hear Billy state. But even I could hear how defensive he sounded now, and not in an innocent way, and as I turned to him, he could barely look at me, just stealing little guilty glances. What the hell did he do?
"Billy, just tell him. You had to know that you wouldn't keep getting away with it." I then hear Mason say, and to my surprise, his tone was a lot calmer now, and there was less venom too. Which confused me a little bit more. Billy had to have done something bad, that involved me, but for the life of me, I had no idea what it could be.
"It's okay, Billy. If you broke something of mine, I don't really care. it's not like I have anything that important here." I decide then say as reassuringly as I could. Sure I didn't have much here, but Lily did bring a couple of things, and if he broke one of those or damaged them, I would be pissed, but not that much, and not enough for him to seem to afraid and guilty looking.
"Fine!" I then hear Mason state. Which makes me turn to him in surprise, both at what he did said, and for actually answering instead of Billy.
"Please!" Billy then says pleadingly, and this whole thing just gets more and more confusing. I just didn't understand it at all. Billy did something that affects me. Okay, that's not good, but why would that piss Mason off so much. It makes no sense.
"Riley, how was the party last night?" Mason then suddenly asks me. Catching me completely off guard and again, confusing the hell out of me, what the hell did the party have to do with this? Did Billy do something at the party?
"It was okay, I had fun." I slowly reply, as I try to work out what was going on, and failing. But whatever response Mason was expecting, I could tell that he was expecting the one I gave and he quickly glanced at Billy, who I could see was looking even more guilty now.
"You remember being there?" He then asks with obvious surprise in his tone. I really wish I knew what was going on though because I was obviously missing something obvious, but as much as I tried, I still had no idea what this was about.
"Yeah, well some of it." I respond honestly. I mean, I had no reason to lie, and if I wanted to figure this out, it just made sense just to be honest and hopefully one of them actually just tells me what was going on. At least I hoped one of them would.
"Last chance, Billy. Are you going to tell him, or am I." Mason then states firmly. Seemingly ignoring my response or dismissing it, I'm not sure which one. If want any answers though, I need just to let it play out though, so I decided not to say anything about it.
"I didn't do anything, Riley. He's being weird and..." Billy then begins to say, but to my shock and horror, I see Mason shove him to the ground. Just like he did earlier, but this time, before I could think about it, I shove Mason, and while he doesn't fall to the ground, he does take a few steps backward.
"What the hell, Mason?" I find myself saying questioningly, but as I move towards Billy, to help him up. I quickly find myself looking at Mason in surprise, as he holds me back, but just as I start to protest, he cuts in before I get a chance even to say one word.
"Don't let him touch you, Riley. I don't know how it works, or what he does, but whatever it is. It's not right, and you need to know the truth." He states slowly and clearly like he wanted me to hear every single word. "Don't look at me like that, Riley. You're the one who came to me, and told me about your blackouts." He then adds before I can say anything.
Not that I was. I might have wanted to because I still was still completely confused, but as he finishes speaking the second part. My eyes quickly dart to Billy, and then back towards Mason. I might be confused, and I need to know a lot more than I do right now, but I think I am slowly starting to understand.
"What has Billy got to do with my blackouts?" I then find myself asking. Although, if I was being honest, there was a part of me that didn't want to know the answer to that. The way Billy was looking, how angry Mason was. The party is brought up, and now the blackouts. I could feel my stomach start to churn.
"I came to the party last night, Riley. Just like we talked about, and at first, I just thought you were drunk or something. According to a couple of the others, you had a couple of drinks, but nothing strong. It wasn't until I started really looking at you that I saw something familiar." Mason begins to explain, before just stopping. Which takes me a few seconds to realize that he was giving me a chance to respond.
"Billy?" I then say quietly, as I look at him. He doesn't need to respond though, not that he looked like he was going to. I could see it all over his face, and I had figured it out. "How many times?" I then find myself asking. I knew I wasn't going to like the answer, but I needed to know.
"Just tell him, Billy. You're in deep shit, and there's no point denying it." I then hear Mason say. And as much as I wanted to tell him to let me handle it. I needed all the help I could get, and if I was remembering yesterday correctly, I might need his protection as well.
"I didn't hurt anyone." Billy eventually responds, sounding as meek as he looked right now. But as much as I still felt drawn to him, and wanting to be near him. I now started to understand why, and I could feel myself starting to shake a little bit.
"You took control of his body, Billy, without his knowledge and you pretended to be him. Don't try to act like it was just a bit of fun." Mason quickly snaps sharply. Saying exactly what I should be saying myself, but I just couldn't. I just felt sick and violated. I felt scared.
But there is just silence now, and while I can tell that Mason wanted to say more, he stays quiet. A part of me appreciates it, but another part of me, the part that is starting to hyperventilate, wanted him to take control.
"Why?" I then surprisingly hear myself asking. I wasn't sure how I found my voice, but I had, and I wanted Billy to start talking. He violated me… oh god… no… he wouldn't. "Did..." I then try to ask, but I just couldn't. Just the idea of it, made me feel sick to my stomach, and I found myself backing away.
"Riley?" I then hear Mason say in concern, but right now, I just wanted to get away. I trusted Billy, I treated him like a brother. "Billy, don't you..." I then hear Mason try to say, but before he can finish, Billy suddenly disappears.
Seeing him disappear, quickly stops me from moving backward. I had no idea how to feel right now, but I knew that I needed to stay with Mason. I don't think Billy would hurt me, but I didn't want to be alone, and without Aidan here, that just left my sister, and I wasn't even close to being ready for her to know about this.
"He won't go far. He's probably in his room if you want to go there, Riley." Mason then says. Surprising me a little, as I was starting to get lost in my own thoughts.
"Mason..." I then begin to say, before feeling my legs go from underneath me. Although, before I can even really register what was happening, I felt Mason's arms around me. "How could he?" I then say, before just shaking in his arms. I just couldn't believe he could do that to me.
"I know this doesn't make anything better, Riley. But I did get to talk to a few people, and he never did anything bad, at least from the stuff they said, and we have trackers here. He hasn't left the Facility since he got here." Mason then decides to say for some reason. Well, I guess to reassure me, and I guess it might do eventually. Just not right now.
"Please take me to my room." I decide to say. I needed to be somewhere safe. Somewhere private, and away from anyone. "No… waits, can we go to your room. Please?" I then quickly say, as I think about Billy, and realize that he had been coming to my room, and doing whatever he had been doing to me. I couldn't go back there.
"Sure, anything you want, Riley." He quickly responds. I then feel him shift a little and adjust his hold on me, and before I know it, I am sitting on his bed. Normally it would amaze me, how fast he was, but all I felt was numbness, as I tried to process everything.
Two hours later…
"I can stay if you want me to." Mason offers with a worried expression. We were still in his room, more because I had realized that my room was no longer my room, I had packed all my stuff and Lily had already taken it to the car.
"It sounded important, and they said that Agent Higson requested you." I respond quietly. I didn't want him to go, but while I had only been here just over a month, I knew that when Agent Higson requested someone, it wasn't a good idea to keep him waiting.
I could see the conflict on his face, and I could tell that he knew that I wanted him to say. I may not have told him about what Billy had been doing to my body, while he had controlled me, but he knew it was something serious. I had actually to convince him not to get Billy.
It's not that I wanted to protect Billy, but even with everything that he had done to me, there was a part of me that kind of understanding. I felt the connection whenever I was near him, it was like something was pulling us towards each other, and while it didn't justify what he did. He was younger than me, and maybe if I were a year or two younger, I would have done the same. I don't know.
"I still don't want you to be alone, and I really don't want you to go find Billy. He might just be a kid, but he knew what he was doing, Riley. Can't you just wait for me, or for Aidan to come back?" He then asks with an almost pleading look. I appreciated him not mentioning Lily, but I still wanted to see Billy, even if it was risky.
"He's not evil, Mason. He knows that you know what he's been doing, so he isn't going to do anything, and as I told you, there is this connection between us, and he's just too young to… I don't know, I just need to talk to him." I quickly respond with a slight shrug of the shoulders. It was just something I needed to do, and I needed to do it as soon as possible.
"I still think you should wait, but it's your choice, and I will come by after I see what Agent Higson wants." Mason then says. I can tell that he's still not keen on me seeing Billy alone, but at least he is respecting that it's my choice, and again, I can see why Aidan likes him so much. He's a great guy.
"I know, but it's my choice, Mason. I'm going to stay here for a little bit longer, and then go find him." I decide to say in response. I was still a little bit nervous, but I knew that I needed to do it, and even though I could tell that he still wasn't convince, I knew he wouldn't push it any further.
"Just text me, when you find him just so I know where to come to find you." He then states firmly. I think we both knew that he sounded a little over the top, but at the same time, it was the sensible thing to do. Billy might be a kid, but he would be scared and defensive right now, so knowing Mason would be checking up on me, made me feel a lot safer.
"I will, but you better get going. Didn't he make you and Aidan clean the toilets, the last time you guys kept him waiting?" I then say with a smile. I was still feeling nervous, and I could still see his reluctance, but I wanted to lighten the mood a little.
"I still remember the smell. Aidan was convinced that Higson made sure they were a lot dirtier than they would normally be." Mason quickly responds with a shake of the head. "Just lock the door when you head out." He then says after a little chuckle. I still didn't see why they locked their rooms, but I guess it's just a habit or something.
"I will, and thanks, Mason. You're a good friend." I then find myself saying. He really was a good friend, and it made me feel even more guilty, that I tried to convince Aidan that they could never be more than that. I might have had a good reason, but it was still wrong.
Instead of responding like I had expected him to, with words. He instead quickly gives me a slightly awkward cuddle. Before then giving me a just as awkward looking smile, before suddenly disappearing. I'm not quite sure what just happened, but I guess it was nice, even if a little out of character and weird.
I wonder if that was another side to Mason, that Aidan had seen and liked because it was kind of sweet, and something he obviously didn't do a lot. However, as I look around the room and sit back down on his bed, I can't help but think about Billy again. I needed to figure out what I wanted to say and how it could go.
Thirty minutes later…
Shit, I really didn't know if I wanted to do this, and while I knew that I could just turn around and wait for Mason. I had already sent him the text to say where I was, and while that wasn't exactly something that meant I couldn't change my mind. I found myself knocking still on Billy's door, and I could hear someone moving inside.
So I knew he was there and there was no way I could walk away, without him seeing me. But to my surprise, he doesn't answer the door or make any kind of attempt to let me know that he had even heard me knock. So I try again, and he still doesn't answer the door.
I guess I could just leave now. He had obviously no intention of answering the door to anyone, and he didn't know it was me, I hadn't called out. So I could really blame him that much because he must be worried about what might happen to him now.
I consider calling out, but if he really wanted to avoid me. I knew I would if the roles were reversed. So instead, I decided just to try the door, and hope that he hadn't locked it, and as I tried the handle and the door started to open. I wasn't sure if I was relieved or not.
"I'm not going to shout at you." I then quickly say with a slight edge to my voice. I was still not completely sure I should do this alone, but I could tell that he was thinking of running away, and while there was a part of me that wouldn't mind that. I needed to get this over with now.
"I didn't hurt anyone." He eventually says after a few moments. I could tell that he was still considering running, and as I waited to see what he would do, I couldn't help but notice that he was packing, or at least attempting to pack some of his things into some bags.
"You hurt me." I decided to say after closing the door behind myself. I was sure he wouldn't run now, and despite still being wary of him, I still didn't think he would ever actually hurt me, not like that, anyway. "Don't give me that look, Billy. I trusted you, and you took control of my body. A lot." I find myself quickly adding, with a little venom in my voice. I could tell from his expression, what he was going to say, and I wanted him to know, that this was going to be a serious conversation.
"But I didn't do anything, nothing bad, and I didn't force..." He then begins to say, almost desperately, but I quickly cut him off. I didn't want to make him feel cornered and try to run away, but I need to make sure he understood what he had done.
"Explain last night then." I quickly ask, and straight away I can see that I caught him off guard. I'm not sure what he was thinking, or if he ever thought about what he would say if he got caught, but from the look on his face now, I would say that he hadn't.
"I just went to the party, and it was..." He then begins to respond, but I cut him off quickly again. I'm not sure if he skipped over what happened on purpose, but it was too big of a deal, to just let go. It also contradicted his insistence, that he never hurt anyone.
"You know that's not what I meant, Billy. I don't know if you screwed up wiping my memory this time, but I remember what you did to me yesterday, and don't you even dare try to deny it or make excuses." I quickly state in a firm tone. I didn't want him to run, but I was angry at him, and I was pissed at him. Forcing me to be under his control, I wasn't sure if I could ever trust him again.
Instead of responding though, he just sighs and sits down on his bed. I wasn't sure what to make of it, but I guess it meant that he wasn't going to run, and even though I knew he was quick, him sitting down and me standing up, gave me a little sense of safety.
"Billy, this isn't just a small thing. I'm going to have to tell people what you've been doing, and before you try and beg me or something, remember that Mason knows too, and he won't keep it quiet." I decided to say after a few moments. He hadn't made any attempt to answer my question, and I needed to get him talking.
"They were going to find out anyway." He then suddenly says, and I couldn't help but look at him in surprise. It was one of the last things I would have expected him to say, and I wasn't quite sure how to respond.
"Huh?" Is all I can think of to say in response. It was obvious that he was waiting for me to respond, as he made no attempt to carry on, and it suddenly dawned on me that he was now in control of the conversation.
"We're meant to be together, Riley. I know it's weird and stuff, but I can't merge with anyone else, and when we merge, we're amazing, Riley. We could be the best hero ever." I hear him respond in a calm tone. He made it sound like we were going to be heroes, together.
"Merge?" I find myself asking. It wasn't exactly the most important question I had, but it just slipped out, even though I already knew what he obviously meant, and I guess despite the situation, it was as good of a way to describe it as anything else.
"It's what it is. I know I messed up, and that I did it all wrong, but we're connected, Riley. I know you feel it too, whenever we're near each other. It just feels good, and we're strong, Riley. I reckon if we practice, we could be better than anyone else here, we could be the best." He then states with a slightly unsettling smile. He meant what he was saying, he believed it, and he must have thought about it too.
"What are you talking about? I don't even have powers, I'm not an Empowered, Billy." I decide to say in response. Sure there were other things we needed to talk about, especially him merging with me by force. But this was important too, because the way he was talking, he wanted us to be the best heroes ever, and I just didn't understand it at all.
"I know that you have weird genes." He quickly responds, before pausing and looking a little sheepish. "I overheard you and Lily talking. You might not be an Empowered, but whatever happened when Baine tried to kill you, activated something inside you, and now we can merge, and when we do, all my powers are stronger." He then explains, just before I could ask him to do just that. Leaving me completely stunned again.
"Fuck!" I then say, before just staring at him. This was just too weird, and his confidence and the way he was talking, started to make me feel uncomfortable again. I mean, I guess it's a little exciting, and he wasn't lying about our connection, but even so, he violated me.
We then just stare at each other for a few minutes, and I started to notice how calm he really was. Earlier he had been nervous and scared, he looked like he was going to run, now, however, he looked a lot older than his age, and didn't look phased at all.
"Why not tell me?" I then find myself asking. It was the only thing I could think of to say, but by his expression, I could tell that he wasn't quite sure what I was asking. "Billy, why didn't you just talk to me? Why not just tell me that we could merge and we could have asked the doctors and researchers for help." I decide to add, hopefully helping him to understand what I wanted from him.
"I was, but I er… well I wasn't really sure what er… I don't know..." He struggles to say in response, as he trailed off and reverted back to how he was when I first came into the room. Which meant that he was being honest. This wasn't just him trying to play me.
"Billy, you made me cum. I don't want to know how many times or how, but you violated me. You say you want us to be these awesome heroes, but you forced me, without my knowledge. So ‘I don't know' isn't good enough, Billy. It's not even close." I then say angrily. I wanted answers, and this was the one that had been playing on my mind the most, and it would decide what I tell everyone about what had been happening.
"I'm sorry." He meekly responds, and while I thought it was genuine, it wasn't good enough. He might only be thirteen years old, but what he did, he didn't deserve a get out of jail free card. This was too serious, and I needed the truth.
"Not good enough, Billy. You can either talk to me now, or we can talk about this with everyone else." I quickly state as firmly as I could. It was a bluff, well kind of, because there was no way that I wanted everyone to know about the sexual stuff, no way in hell. But he didn't have to know that.
"I don't know. I promise, Riley. I was just curious to start with, I didn't even mean to merge with you the first time, it just kind of happened and I just figured when I realized what happened, it would be like it was when we went to wherever we went before. But then you didn't remember, so I tried again to see, and then again, and I kept wanting to tell you, but it was fun, and I wasn't hurting anyone. I just thought maybe I could do it for a while, and then we would talk about it, and we would be a hero together." He quickly answers in what seemed like one breath. I wasn't even really sure what to make of his words. So I just decided to take a few moments and try to process them.
It was just so weird though. I could tell that he was being honest, and I guess it makes sense. I know that the weird connection between us is strong, I've felt it enough, I can feel it right now. However, it still didn't make it okay, and he skipped past the sexual stuff. Which I couldn't just let go.
"Okay, say that's all true. Say I believe you and understand, Billy. Why did you make me cum, and I'm not stupid, Billy. Even if you wiped my memory, I'm still a teenager, and I knew something was happening. So explain it to me, why?" I then ask with a little venom in my tone. He was going to answer this question, and I knew I had to be tougher on him, to get him to answer.
"I was just curious, you got hard a couple of times, and I remember seeing you pee. Mine gets hard sometimes, but nothing comes out, and I wanted to see it, and it felt really good, and I only did it a couple of times." He quickly responds, but even though he answered my question. It wasn't good enough, and I needed more than that. I think he sensed how I felt because he was now starting to blush and while his answer wasn't what I wanted to hear, at least he wasn't lying. He was just not telling me everything.
"It felt good to be in control. Everyone is bigger and better than me. When I was you, people treated me like I wasn't just a dumb little kid, and I liked it, and if you knew that we could merge, you would stop me from doing it. Even if you didn't stop it, I would never be in control, and everyone would just carry on treating me like a dumb kid." He then says, and I can tell that he was being honest. But just like before, it wasn't what I wanted to hear right now. Sure, it made me understand it a bit more, but it's not what I asked him.
"And making me cum, how does that come into all of this. Don't think the other stuff doesn't matter, because it does, Billy. But you basically raped me, and I know that you know what that means, and sure that might be exaggerating a little bit, but I trusted you, and you did that to my body. How am I supposed to forgive you?" I then ask, deciding to just lay it out for him. This time making sure that he knew exactly what I was asking. I could forgive the other stuff, I really did understand. Him touching my body like that and making me cum, that was different, and if he could do that, what else could he be capable of?
"You won't believe me." He quickly states quietly. I'm not sure what I expected, but that wasn't it, and it did lower my guard a little bit. I was expecting excuses or some big confession, but the way he just said that, made me question whether I was being too harsh. Which just felt ridiculous, given the circumstances.
"Try me, Billy. I want to know." I then say with an expectant look. I actually found myself wanting to go easy on him, but this was too important. I needed to know the truth, and then I needed to get away from him and think about everything, and what I was going to do next.
"Well..." He then starts to say, before trailing off for a few moments. "Riley, I didn't do anything to start with, nothing like that, but you kept getting hard. I mean I get those too, but I wanted to hang around with people, and I wasn't sure how to get rid of it, then some of the guys must have noticed, and they joked about jacking off before I went out, and I didn't really know what that meant. I never heard it being called that before, and when I did figure it out, I thought it would be okay, but then you made sperm, and it felt so good, so I did it a couple of times. I knew it was wrong, Riley. But I promise I didn't do it to hurt you or anything. I want us to be the best hero. I just messed up." He then explains before I can say anything, and I really wasn't sure how to take his explanation. It kind of made sense, sort of. But it didn't make it okay, at least not right now, and I needed to get away. I needed to just think about this, and I needed just to get away from this stupid Facility.
"Billy, I will talk to Mason. Make sure that he doesn't talk, but I don't forgive you, and I don't want to speak to you. I'm going home soon, and I will think about everything, I promise, but I need to go. Don't try to get in touch with me, just give me time to think about everything." I then decide to say. Sure, I had a lot more to say. I wanted to shout at him, hell there was a part of me that wanted to punch him, a very big part. We could talk for hours and hours, and maybe that would help. Right now though, I needed to get away from him.
So I stare at him for a few more moments and wait until he eventually nods. I could tell that he wasn't sure what this meant, but at least for now, he must have understood enough to know that we were done talking for now. His expression almost made me want to stay, and that weird connection we had, made that feeling even stronger. However, as soon as I saw his expression change slightly, an expression that looked hopeful. It quickly reminded me of what we had been talking about, and it makes me open the door to his room, and quickly walk out of it.
I then take a deep breath and head straight to where I hoped Mason was. Hopefully, he was done with whatever he was called away for. I wanted to explain in person before I left. But I didn't have much longer and would have to leave him a message, because I didn't want to keep Lily waiting. She knew how much I wanted to leave, and if I looked like I was stalling, she would want to know why, and there was no way I could talk to her about this. None of it.
To be continued...